Don't believe the lie that always struggling to obey God is a worse lot in life than disobeying him with peace. God did not make us to "feel good inside" (or outside) all the time this side of heaven; he made us to share in the sufferings of Christ, that we might also share in his resurrection. And the reality, for many, is that the resurrection kind of life in these areas of death isn't always postponed until the life to come. But you won't know that until you're willing to go to the cross for as long as it takes to die.
Adapted from The Imperfect Disciple by Jared C Wilson